&the greying vision

Friday, November 03, 2006 4:09 AM

before i knew my time is up.
the big O 's approaching.
and im like.. gng.. shit.
damn it.
all my revision ain't finished!
and im like, yet to touched on my physics and chem.
and ss, i've yet to touched on seq.
geog? both agri and tourism.
i knew i was behind time.
but i cant help procastinating.
it really sucks to the core.
my mum aint giving me stress tht is a must to like score how many A1.s
but i kept telling myself.
if i wouldn't achieve the grades i targetted for myself esp after my prelims grades,
i will seriously be a let down.
esp on my maths.
kept stressing myself.

"cindy, you've already taken a year extra to retake your maths. if you dont get an a1 you're really a let down to many ppl."

can i really do as well as i did in prelims?
i seriously doubting myself.

i would also wish tht i had greater confidence on myself.
but upon seeing the piles of worksheet and books tht stared blankly at me when im supposed to study,
i was KO-ed.
and poom.. i went into my slumberland.
or else, the books are staring at me.
and my eyes are staring at the television.
as what ppl always say.

"with great confidence, you have already won half the battle. "

how i wish it was true for me.

can any kind soul give me a morning call on next monday?
or best, stay over at my house to wake the pig up?
cos i defenitely, certainly, indeed,undoubtedly have problems waking up.
shit.

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